I originally started this blog thinking that I’d be good about writing about my journey in the 2015 year of triathlon very diligently, being thoughtful about what’s happening, what happened and what I see in the future.
The truth is, I was just overwhelmed. With everything! There were so many firsts in 2015 – first full year in Miami, first year with a new coach, first year in the new job (and then another new job), first year with the boyfriend – in retrospect, it was too much to process at once. I had to let myself be ok with just getting used to my new reality.
Which, I absolutely love. I LOVE my life. I have tremendous friends, a great job, a bright triathlon future and my absolute favorite human to share it all with. That, in and of itself, is new for me, I realized. I just wasn’t used to having so much happiness! What a terrible thought!
Any way, I had to adjust. I had to adjust to not being depressed or sad or worried all the time. It’s a good adjustment, but a significant change.
With that behind me, I decided that 2016 is going to be the year of (pardon my language) “Giving Zero F*&(s”. It’s my year to focus on me and do the things I know I can do, but have always held back on, for whatever reason/excuse/bs.
I think I get too concerned with my impact on other folks – I don’t want to inconvenience anyone, or stand out in anyway (yes, shocker…I’m an introvert!). This year, I’m over that. If I want to do something, I’m going to find a way to do it, and if people have to adjust to it, so be it. I’m going to completely focus on me and my goals and outcomes, and not worry about what anyone thinks about my plan and what anyone else is doing to get to the same place I’m heading towards.
I realize that this is probably close minded, but I think I need to be like that for a bit. It’s not in my nature to be that way, so I need to work at it. My tendency is to drift from idea to strategy and not stick with anything because I’m so curious about the potentials and possibilities. This year, I’ve chosen my path and I’m sticking to it. In order to do that, I have to force myself to focus and not be distracted by other (probably good) ideas and strategies and focus on the ones I’ve vetted, chosen and invested in.
This year, I’m going to:
- Do what my triathlon coach tells me to do
- Eat what my nutrition coach tells me to
- Keep the long-term strategy as my guiding light, but…
- Take it day by day when it gets overwhelming
And I want to:
- Lose at least 25 pounds before Ironman Lake Placid. This is going to be my last Iron-distance race for awhile, so I want to make it count.
- Race under 5:30 in a Half Ironman, probably either Miami 70.3 or MiamiMan. I know I’ve got it in me, particularly with the weight loss. In order to get there, I need to:
- Improve my run pace so I can run about 8:30’s in a HIM.
- Actually be able to race my bike race wattage of 200 watts.
- Swim the way I know I can, in the high 1:30’s/100y.
Triathlon done intentionally 